Sum of my Father's love
I am Josephine, and my Lord has written my love story. I am single, and will be meeting my future spouse soon, well it is still in the future tense as I write these but all will see that the Lord has done great things for me.
I am not idealistic or one that has watched so many Hollywood movies and that is not the reason I speak in hope. Allow me to share my story of hope.
I have been quite a popular girl among the circle of boys, getting my fair share of attention. These guys will come into my life for no reason and they are not short of the cute and funny things that they say and do (mostly say actually). And just as they suddenly appear, they also suddenly disappear or rather shift mode. They are suddenly not friendly, attentive and chivalrous any more. It has left me feeling very undesirable and not worthy of a men's attention. In the past, it has been tough for me, especially when people in my soceity continue to measure my success based on my marital status.
Playing Games
It took me years of prayer to accept and understand that these guys were not in it for the right reasons and the ones who were, either did not have their hearts set on the Lord or were not interested in playing those games. Because after some time I realised that I was also a player, playing all along with these guys, all those mind games. It does take two people to play any game, so it was then that I decided to change my 'player' attitude and to be myself. This realisation was a major breakthrough in my life and led me to totally relying in God.
It was then that I also realised that I am not the sum of my attractiveness and charming personality or my riches or success but the sum of my Father love.
Hope in love, through Christ
Coming back to the hope I have, it was simply hard for me not to have that hope. I know my heart and I know that it needs a love that lasts and on my end I have to be immersed in the One Love of all, Our Lord Jesus Christ before I am to experience a tender love of a man of God.
My Father knocks at the door of my heart and tells me that love awaits but first He wants me to be immersed and totally mesmerised by Him. Day by day He is working with me, hand in hand. When He died on the cross, He proposed His love for me and in His Body and Blood we are made one – there can be no greater love.
You are either in a relationship or you are not
If you are not in a relationship, you are single because there is no such thing as 'being in a thing' with someone. Take heart, the Lord is here and He is near, He does want a banquet of love in your human relationship too.
Be Satisfied in Me by St Antony of Padua
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, To have a deep soul relationship with another, To be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied, Fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me. With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship, That I have planned for you. You will never be united to another Until you are united with Me. Exclusive of anyone or anything else. Exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow Me to give you The most thrilling plan existing . . . one you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you. Just wait, that's all. Don't be anxious, don't worry Don't look around at things others have gotten Or that I have given them Don't look around at the things you think you want, Just keep looking off and away up to Me, Or you'll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love Far more wonderful than you could dream of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even at this moment To have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me And the life I prepared for you, You won't be able to experience the love that exemplified your relationship with Me. And this is perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me. And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I AM God. Believe it and be satisfied.