Hanna Nennie-van Gemeren

Leusden, Netherlands

Do I need God?

I am the mother of four beautiful, healthy boys

I am married to a man who loves me, and I love him

I have a great job

A comfortable house in a nice area of town.

Healthy relationships with others

Surrounded myself with people who are just like me

I grew up in a nurturing environment with parents who have stayed committed to one another through the years.

My parents are solid and steady and that is how I approach life with all of my family and friends.

So, as you can see, my life is in order. I've got this! I am a self-made woman who doesn't need anyone or anything.

Or do I? 

I have a confession to make. Being this independent woman is not everything it seems. Living as this self-sufficient individual has depleted me. I am tired. I am tired of all the decisions I have to make as a mom and wife. I am tired of meeting everyone's needs around me; at home and at work.

Actually, I am more than tired. I am exhausted!

So, my moment of decision came a few years ago.

The decision was clear and simple. I was at a cross-roads in my life. Which road would I take? Would I continue to run my life? Would I keep trying to make it on my own? Or would I let Someone help me?  I knew I needed help. I needed Someone to listen to me, who saw me for who I really was; tired and not at all perfect, but Someone Who also understood what would be best for me. My husband and friends are certainly great advisers, but I knew they could never completely discern what was going on inside of me. Guess what? I experienced the thing I needed most in life.


I came to realize it is awesome to walk through life with Him. I am not so blind as to think I will never have to make another decision. But decision-making is different now. God is walking beside me at all times. There are times I do not know which way to go or what would be best for my family or me. But, I know I can trust God to lead me through His Holy Word, the Bible. And what I absolutely like is that He really likes to help me! He only wants good things for me. And He has promised to never leave me or forsake me. God was willing to send His Son, Jesus, to die for me and for you too!

At times, I still think that I can do everything on my own. However, it is not long before I feel tired with no energy again. I have put all kinds of worries in my imaginary backpack and I carry them with me everywhere I go. When I realize what I am doing, I say “Lord Jesus, I have tried to make it by myself again. I am not smart! But please, take this backpack from me.” And He does! Over and over and over again!

You don't have to be tired of life and you don't have to do it all alone. It makes me happy when I realize that I don't have to be alone ever again and there will be always Someone with me Who knows me, understands me completely, Who not only wants what is best for me, but Who has an amazing love for me as well. I just can't get over it!

So, what about you?

Can you live without God?

Please think about what I have wrote. I would love to know your thoughts so we can talk about it further.

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