Nine years ago my life drastically changed.  I was only fourteen years old and lost my mother to cancer.  I did not understand how a good God could let something like that happen.  It was the first time I had to really think about what I believed.  The years that followed I tried to find a way to find satisfaction in anything the world had to offer.   I became bitter toward the world.  But I evenually found satisfation in a girl. I placed my hope in her.  She became my identity.  I pushed all others out of my life.  The girl was the one I thought would always be there and never let me down.  But eventually my bitterness spread to her and she wanted nothing to do with me.  I was lost. I did not know where to go.  I did not think there was hope for me after how I lived the last 5 years. I found my sisters Bible and thought I would see what it was all about.  I began to read about Jesus.  I realized that this life was not about what I could do but what he already did.  That I was forgiven and made perfect in Christ.  That He can be my hope.  Four years ago my life again drastically changed.  I gave my life to Chirst.  I was no longer bitter but full of excitement for each day.  My life was no longer living for selfishnes but to live for Christ.  I knew that He loved me and I can be fulfilled through Him.