I have lived a good life. I was always the good kid in class, never got in trouble, never rebelling, always being nice to everyone. I think most of the people who have known me would say I am a pretty good person. But that's on the outside. On the inside there is a darkness that I work very hard to hide from everyone else.
From very early on I knew that there was within me a self-centeredness that I could not control. I was more concerned about what made me happy than what was right or how that would hurt other people. In fact, a lot of my 'being good' was motivated by my self-centeredness, to get people to do what I wanted.
At different points of my life I have come face to face with my darkness, and in those moments discovered that I need someone else to come and bring it under control. Jesus is the only one who has been able to effectively address the dark self-centeredness in my life and transform me into someone I could never have been on my own.
You see Jesus took my darkness on Himself when He died, and in return He gave me the light of His love. Now I look to Him to lead my attitudes and actions so that I live out His love. I don't fear the darkness in me anymore because I know that with Jesus in control that self-centeredness has died.
Jesus wants to do the same thing for you. He said, "I am the light of the world. The one who follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." You don't have to be controlled by the darkness; turn your life over to Jesus and He will transform your darkness into His light.