Finding God
Hi, my name is Joseph DuBois, and I don't know about you, but I have had this feeling inside me that there is a strong potential for me to do good and great things in this world. So what did I do about it? I got busy. And by that I mean that I joined my high school soccer team, the choir, drama club, beta club, National Honor Society, and became class president; along with my two youth groups, Boy Scout troop, and church commitments. I began to fill up my time with anything and everything because I wanted to succeed, to make a difference, and to have fun! I loved it! Everything was going great but then something started to happen. With everything that I was doing, I began to have less and less time for my friends, my family, and, least of all, God. I was filling my heart with things of this world and that lead me into sin. I got sucked into sins of impurity, sloth, and irresponsibility. My life was defined by the things on my schedule and I only fell deeper into this rut. Through all of this, that feeling of potential only grew stronger and it caused a feeling of unrestfulness.
Then I went off to college. It was the first time that I was completely on my own and I remember one day I was sitting in my room and I thought to myself, "Where has my life gone?" I realized then just how much I had neglected my family and friends, and now I was hundreds of miles away. This caused me to feel awful about myself and I became sad and depressed. That is when I decided something needed to change. Though I searched, nothing on campus was helping me and I realized that I did not have the discipline to change on my own, but this left me not knowing what to do. It was late one night after a long day of classes and meetings while I was walking back to my room. On the way, I became extremely distraught at the thought of myself because of all of my failures. I just could not take it! That is when I looked up and saw the chapel. Having nothing left, I went in, knelt before the tabernacle, and gave everything to God. I knelt there crying and, through my tears, asked God to come into my life and turn it around. That night, I went back to my room full of peace and I resolved to always keep God at the forefront of my life. Since then, I have often failed and reverted to my old ways but God always helps me back up again! With time, I learned that when I am doing God's will, the feeling of potential is replaced by a sense of fulfillment along with the peace. If you feel helpless, distraught, or unpeaceful, God can turn your life around and I would love to talk to you about it!