Vincent LUCAS

MALAKOFF, France

God changed my sexuality

Christian and attracted toward men

I was born in a christian family. Despite my faith, i felt depressed during all my teenager year’s. I didn’t have many friends and couldn’t think seriously about a Relationship with a girl. At the age of 19, i starting to feel that i was more attracted to man than to girls. I didn’t know what to do. Should i live my sexuality? Something retained me. 

After many encouters with a psychologue, I discovered a deep anger within myself. I felt confusedly that i have been injured in my masculinity. 

So I began to pray to the Lord for a change of sexual attraction, in order to found a family. But at the same time, I persuaded myself that my desire for women had been inhibited by my overly intellectual education. For “Waking up” my desire, I began to look at pornographic movies and obsessively watching women in the street.

These behaviors led straight to a depression that I left only in Deciding to bring me closer to faith. Following a retreat in a monastery, and with many confessions of my sins to priests, I managed to reduce my film consumption pornographic. I stopped trying to fan my desire dying women in the street. I was still attracted by men. It was impossible for me to maintain a relationship sustainable with a woman.

At the age of 22 years, I joined a charismatic home. I kept praying every day for a change in my sexual orientation. In this home, we proposed to me to be baptized in the holy spirit. I accepted, and while all the household members were praying for me, I asked for the grace of faith. That evening, back in my room, I started, without being able to stop myself, to fantasize about of the boy who lived in the room next door. Suddenly, I felt a huge force out of my belly, and the fantasy disappear at the same time. The holy spirit had just acted. The days after, I felt that my attraction to men had greatly diminished, even if she was still there.

Four months more Later, I was consulting a kinesiologist for another problem. In questioning my past, this man revealed to me the causes of my attraction for men. On the one hand, at the age of eight, I I was more identified with my mother than my father. Since then, I had always felt close to my mother. On the other hand, I had suffered at the age of 14 a rejection of the from my classmates in college. It was for me a awareness.

A few months more Later, I decided to go walking on the paths of Saint Jacques. Every day of walking, I prayed for healing through the rosary and reading the Bible. On the 11th day, I felt a obscure presence leave me. The next day, I felt suddenly Powerfully attracted to the girls I met. I am now married. I want to witness the great things God has done in my life, and can do in yours. You too, ask to receive the Holy Spirit!

Four months more Later, I was consulting a kinesiologist for another problem. In questioning my past, this man revealed to me the causes of my attraction for men. On the one hand, at the age of eight, I I was more identified with my mother than my father. Since then, I had always felt close to my mother. On the other hand, I had suffered at the age of 14 a rejection of the from my classmates in college. It was for me a awareness.

A few months more Later, I decided to go walking on the paths of Saint Jacques. Every day of walking, I prayed for healing through the rosary and reading the Bible. On the 11th day, I felt a obscure presence leave me. The next day, I felt suddenly Powerfully attracted to the girls I met. 

I am now married. I want to witness the great things God has done in my life, and can do in yours. You too, ask to receive the Holy Spirit!

— Read more —
Contact me Learn more about Jesus

Similar stories